Well I really wanted to post something this weekend, but I wasn't sure what I wanted to write about. Then it came to me; puppies. 

I, like my mother, get obsessed with things very easily. The obsession could last for a couple years (my love for One Direction) or a couple days (piercings). Right now, my current obsession is, you guessed it, puppies. Last week my mom decided to foster this bundle of joy for a few weeks. Yes he is wearing a hand-knitted sweater, and yes one arm is out of it.

We call him James and he happens to be the sweetest puppy ever, aside from the fact that he whines all the time and leaves me special presents to pick up throughout the night.

In my family, when we get obsessed with something, we go all in. So on Saturday, my mom got a puppy for herself (She's keeping this one).

He just so happens to be the sweetest and most unique looking German Shepherd pup I've ever seen. We haven't named him yet, but some of the names we've been considering are: Parker, MJ, Max (I hate that name), Henry, and there are a couple more that I can't remember and that's okay.

Her house is so great to be at (on the weekends). There's puppies and kittens, and of course my brother's Shepherd Macy, who's turned up her cuteness to keep up with the pups.

Macy and Puppy

I hope these uploaded properly... Anyway I just wanted to show you what I have to deal with when the pups are actually awake.

I'm An Adult..... what

Okay so a lot has changed since I last posted anything... I could go about sharing everything in a list... or paragraphs... hmmmm. Decisions, decisions. 

For starters, I am now 18 years old! I didn't get a chance to do any 18-esque things yet (like buying lottery tickets, or cigarettes (I don't smoke) or whatever). I thought I might have a better day than I did, but what can ya do? I did, however get some pretty nice gifts...

• A new Ralph Lauren purse... This one was quite controversial because my mother told me she returned it as a punishment (will explain later) but it turns out she didn't return it so now its mine and I'm rambling.
• Photoshop Lightroom 5 and a tablet thing that I can draw with (I don't know how to explain it but its kind of like a huge track pad on a laptop--but more awesome)
• A CD, Animal Collective to be more specific
• Speakers that plug into my phone or iPod or whatever
• A Starbucks mug that is super cute, along with Peppermint Mocha mix and a $10 giftcard
• Last but not least my dad's girlfriend is buying me paint for my new room!

New room?

Ah yes well on Saturday, I moved from my mom's house to my dad's house. It was an imminent event... I just couldn't put it off any longer. This goes a long with the whole taking my present back thing. Anyway, it only took two hours to pack up all my things, but they filled up two cars and a trailer... I have a lot of crap. Anyway this whole moving thing has been quite the emotional roller coaster for me because:

a) I love my mom very much and we are very close. 

But...

b) She has said and done some very mean things that I just can't overlook anymore.

So I know this move was the right thing for me, but my mom is very upset about it and I feel bad for leaving her all alone until my stepdad comes back in March. Which means I miss seeing her on her birthday, Christmas, and New Years. Those are our favorite holidays, and birthdays are a big deal in our (I guess now her) house. Birthdays are your personal holiday and should be treated as such. Point is, no one wants to be alone on any of those occasions. "But you can just go visit her, right?"

Wrong. She said that she no longer has children and that she may as well be dead to us. What a nice thing to tell your kids, huh? So I will not be seeing her for a while. In the mean time, I do plan on calling her on her birthday and sending her a gift.

I thought maybe typing all this out would help me feel better about this whole ordeal... I will end this with a short story for you:

While talking to my dad about this and about my mom,  I told him I was worried about mom and the fact that I could possibly turn out like her/ have a hard time later on in life because of this. He responded with this and I don't think I'll ever forget it:

"Whatever life you live in, you create it."

He probably didn't come up with this on his own or anything, but it's pretty relevant to me right now. I don't know... I could explain it and what not. but it's getting late and I'm finally getting a little tired. I guess just take it for what it is.